I'm not a girl, not yet a woman

Please excuse the Britney Spears reference for the title of this post.

Now that we have gotten that out of the way, let me just say, that graduating from college sucks. Really sucks. No longer a student, not yet employed. Because I want to go into the entertainment field but also stay in Seattle, I have limited resources. The music scene is small but there is still a strong following of independent music. So, I have begun to network and try to make connections. This is easy and yet it isn't. It's easy because the industry in Seattle is so small that everyone seems to know everyone, which helps when you are trying to make your name known around the city. It isn't easy because even though they now know your name, it doesn't mean they are interested in hiring you for anything.

When I was in New Orleans, a fortune teller took my tarot card reading and I asked her about my future (this was all for fun, of course.) I told her I was debating between staying in Seattle because it is where I grew up, it's where my family is, and I could become a part of the small, independent scene, or staying in LA after college and trying to work at mainstream music companies since there are more entertainment opportunities there. She told me I would struggle more staying in Seattle but that once I made it to the top, I would appreciate everything I went through. If I stayed in LA, however, she told me I would more easiy find success. I guess I'll have to decide what is more worth it to me - the struggle to stay in the city that I love, or the instant rise to the top (this is all assuming the fortune teller was right, but I can play it as a self-fulfilling prophecy, I suppose.)

I love music. There's no better way to express that thought than to say it that way - I LOVE MUSIC. I can't imagine having a career that doesn't involve it. I'm doing what I can, so stay tuned. (And look for posts quoting emo songs, which is how I'm starting to feel about this whole process lately - sad and angsty.)